Wow! What is THIS? A blog post.... from me?
Well, I have decided to keep on trucking. I fell off the Get-Fit-By-40 wagon, but realized it can be caught again. I fell into my usual routine of being REALLY gung-ho and all about it, for about 2 whole weeks.. ok maybe a few more. I made a some really great breakthroughs and got over my fear of being in a swimsuit. I got over my fear of being the only fattie in aerobics class. Then, I don't know what happened (well, I kinda do), but
I stopped eating healthy.
I stopped exercising.
I stopped believing I could do it.
About the same time as I stopped exercising, I began to freeze up about my doctoral exams. I was so worried that I would fail my exams and that fear paralyzed me. I was so afraid of failing my exams that I couldn't even open my books and notes and get started studying. I pretty much stopped doing everything. I should have just kept blogging - it IS cathartic and therapeutic (for me) and I do get a boost from your comments, advice, and cheers!
SO, Now what?
My original plan was to be in a really good place for the 2010 Holidays. By that I mean that I thought by now I would be "used" to eating healthy and in an exercise routine so I could better resist the holiday temptations and over-indulgences. But hey, there is no time like the present and who says I HAVE to overeat? So, I am heading into the "holiday season" with an open mind and the word "moderation" on my lips.
And about those exams, I am back on track... but that will be the next post.